Kamea
I send my heartfelt sympathy to you and your family. It is never easy loosing someone that we love. The bible has really helped me too have a hope for the future. Revelation 21:3,4 "with that I heard a loud voice from the throne say. Look! The tent of God is with mankind, and he will reside and they will be his people. And god himself will be with them. And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away. So we can have a hope that one day will not suffer or even experience any of the pain that comes from the lose of a loved one. I hope you will be able to draw encouragement from this scripture.