Juli Thomason
Taking me to Quiet Waters. I've never seen anything as beautiful as the sky and the shoreline that night. We saw a shooting star. You didn't have two thoughts about riding away from a park ranger. Rainbows at the boat club. Lavender and epsom. Be like water. Nacho fight and you insisting I keep that stupid table. Battle breathing and running through the parking garage in the cold. Teaching me about ocean breathing while stretching. Trading puns. Pet the boats for me. Hadestown and Walt Whitman. Baking cookies and 40$ pizza. How proud you looked whenever I ate good food. Putting four cherries in your ice cream. Saltwater For Strings and singing Morning Eyes together.
How much you loved Pups, how she'd only play tug-o-war with you if you held the duck toy in your teeth. You spoiling her and taking a bath with her, using Mane n' Tail for you both. Telling me to never take the collar you got for her off again. I haven't, Sam. And she's looking for you too. Sheepshank. Finding shark teeth on the beach. Sitting on your porch and talking. Sitting on your porch and arguing. Making fun of you for the ridiculous exercise outfits. Chocolate chip pancakes with peaches. To ma toes.
And you'd be so smug at how I'm trying to live all the inspirational things you told me, that I used roll my eyes at. You said so many things that it's like you knew I'd need it now. You and I got each other and got to each other like nothing else. Great and terrible, as all things are. Both so stubborn and I'm sorry for it, I'm so sorry. And I hate that I can't talk to you about it, so I'm here again, trying to get it out of my head. You'd tell me I'm thinking too much, it's never that serious. You're right though, we can do whatever we want. Evergreen.